So, Its been a really long time since I opened this blog. As with many things in my life I started something with some intention or another, then something shiny caught my eye and I forgot about my mission. I forgot that I had started a blog to help motivate me to lose weight.
Well, my body did not forget about my morbid obesity. Nor did my Crohn's disease retreat from its onslaught on my bowels. And in a strange twist of events I ended up spending 2 weeks in the hospital.
Over the past few months, even though I was making no effort to lose any weight or be any healthier. My body was fighting a losing battle. I was barely aware.
I had just started a great new job and other than being a fat slob I was feeling okay. Sure, If something fell to the ground I had a hell of a time picking it up. If I had to do a lot of walking then my back started to hurt something awful, and I had these spontaneous dips in blood sugar which resulted in massive snacking on junk food. Besides all that I was able to get up every morning and go to work.
That all ended very abruptly.
I was nursing an injury under my arm and taking some pain meds when my bowels just locked. I missed work on Monday because of the pain in my side, then early Tuesday morning the vomiting began. My bowels were so swollen that nothing was moving through... and all the food I had eaten was now retreating out the way it had come it.
It took a week in the hospital to prepare, but the following Monday I was sedated and operated on. 18 inches of my colon and large bowel were removed. The pain was intense.
Laying there. Unable to move. Wracked with pain... I remembered this blog.
The Hospital is a pretty boring place... but I did have my laptop, and with the streaming internet I was able to watch Netflix. On my queue was a movie called 'Fat, sick, and nearly dead.' I thought... DAMN TIM! That movie is about you Bro!'
The movie is about a dude from Australia who weighted about as much as I did (315lbs) who went on a 'Fruit Fast' for 60 days. Nothing but fruits and veggies through a juicer. He also had an auto-immune disease that he was battling, though not Crohn's... along with the food cleanse he added more activity to balance what was once a lifestyle very familiar to me.
I'm sold. Have juicer will travel.
So, Here it goes. It all begins tomorrow... and the best news is my wife is going along for the journey.
My weight when I checked into the hospital: 318lbs
Weight night before fast:284
Wednesday, August 24, 2011
Tuesday, January 18, 2011
Opening thoughts and goals.
I've never been goal oriented. Which is probably why I have haven't accomplished much. For years I have been in a constant attempt to lose weight. Fad diets, failed attempts at work out regimens. You name it, and I gave a half-hearted effort to try it. Will this time be different? Well, I hope so.
This time I have tangible goals. Not just 'I want to weigh this much...'. I think that will make a big difference. Plus, starting this is going to help with the accountability and motivation factors. On to goals...
My goals are both practical and personal. I'm not going to say that I don't care about how I look, and that I want to lose weight to be healthy. I do want to be healthy, but I also want to look, well, like me just with a lot less mass. Seriously, if your comfortable being big, cool. I'm not. I feel awful and am often aware that I am almost always the fattest person in the room. It sucks.
So, goals.... Time for a list.
1. Run 5k's. I want to be fit enough to run in 5k's. Maybe further. Even when I was in great shape I didn't really enjoy running for distance, so for now I'm going to say I'm cool with 5k's.
2. Weight. I'd like to lose a lot of it... but like I said before, I'm not going to bind myself to a number.
3. Hockey. I used to play a lot of hockey. I'd like to do that again someday soon. This is probably most important to me. Other than the occasional drop-in, I have not played seriously in far too long. If I don't get motivated and get going on this soon, I never will.
4. Crohn's. I was diagnosed with the disease over the summer, and have felt pretty much terrible since. I don't know if training and exercise will help with the symptoms of the disease, but I don't think it would hurt either. Whats really killing me is the fatigue. I'm always tired. I know that losing 10, 20, 150 lbs will help with that.
5. My family. Like I said earlier. My families heart health history is amazingly terrible. Most the men on my fathers side of the family have had serious heart ailments set in near the age of 50 and these guys are far slimmer than I am. I'm in trouble. Again, if I don't do something soon... well, we'll leave the mellow drama for another blog.
Those are my primary goals. I'd also like to play soccer this summer, and maybe get into biking... but I'd be happy just skating and looking not fat. Now its reality check time.
How the hell did Tim get so damned fat?!
Well, I eat perfectly. Lots of veggies, and I never snack or eat fast food... Errr! If that were the case I wouldn't be this fat. I eat horribly. Sure, maybe my food doesn't come from McDonalds all the time, and I don't eat entire pizza's. But, while the food I eat may be made from scratch, with Love from my wife. I eat enormous portions! Filling heaping piles of meat and starching veggies on my plate. Devouring that and going back for more. Then to top off the gluttony. There is almost always DESERT! Ice cream, cake, candy bars, constant snacking all day long. Diet soda by the 2 litre. Twinkies, Oh my god I love TWINKIES! Hostess anything! Give it to me so I can stuff it into my disgusting fat face!
Exercise? What exercise? I play video games yo, I don't exercise. There is no cardio in World of Warcraft. Sure, maybe I play 10 games of hockey a night, but my Xbox doesn't raise my heart rate!
These are the problems which lead me to my obesity. Call it what it is, I'm a big boy, figuratively and literally. I am a disgusting fat body! I think I finally hate myself enough to do something about it. So, what the hell am I going to do.
I'm going to start with the core. Back and abs. Build up the trunk, then work on the limbs. Also, going to start easing into cardio. Running is my goal, but lets be honest. I'm really in rough shape here, and I have a job. I need to ease into that... I'm going to start the 'Couch Potato to 5k athlete program' http://www.coolrunning.com/engine/2/2_3/181.shtml
I'm open to all ideas. I'm starting food journal and will be keeping track of everything I put in my gullet. Here goes everything!
This time I have tangible goals. Not just 'I want to weigh this much...'. I think that will make a big difference. Plus, starting this is going to help with the accountability and motivation factors. On to goals...
My goals are both practical and personal. I'm not going to say that I don't care about how I look, and that I want to lose weight to be healthy. I do want to be healthy, but I also want to look, well, like me just with a lot less mass. Seriously, if your comfortable being big, cool. I'm not. I feel awful and am often aware that I am almost always the fattest person in the room. It sucks.
So, goals.... Time for a list.
1. Run 5k's. I want to be fit enough to run in 5k's. Maybe further. Even when I was in great shape I didn't really enjoy running for distance, so for now I'm going to say I'm cool with 5k's.
2. Weight. I'd like to lose a lot of it... but like I said before, I'm not going to bind myself to a number.
3. Hockey. I used to play a lot of hockey. I'd like to do that again someday soon. This is probably most important to me. Other than the occasional drop-in, I have not played seriously in far too long. If I don't get motivated and get going on this soon, I never will.
4. Crohn's. I was diagnosed with the disease over the summer, and have felt pretty much terrible since. I don't know if training and exercise will help with the symptoms of the disease, but I don't think it would hurt either. Whats really killing me is the fatigue. I'm always tired. I know that losing 10, 20, 150 lbs will help with that.
5. My family. Like I said earlier. My families heart health history is amazingly terrible. Most the men on my fathers side of the family have had serious heart ailments set in near the age of 50 and these guys are far slimmer than I am. I'm in trouble. Again, if I don't do something soon... well, we'll leave the mellow drama for another blog.
Those are my primary goals. I'd also like to play soccer this summer, and maybe get into biking... but I'd be happy just skating and looking not fat. Now its reality check time.
How the hell did Tim get so damned fat?!
Well, I eat perfectly. Lots of veggies, and I never snack or eat fast food... Errr! If that were the case I wouldn't be this fat. I eat horribly. Sure, maybe my food doesn't come from McDonalds all the time, and I don't eat entire pizza's. But, while the food I eat may be made from scratch, with Love from my wife. I eat enormous portions! Filling heaping piles of meat and starching veggies on my plate. Devouring that and going back for more. Then to top off the gluttony. There is almost always DESERT! Ice cream, cake, candy bars, constant snacking all day long. Diet soda by the 2 litre. Twinkies, Oh my god I love TWINKIES! Hostess anything! Give it to me so I can stuff it into my disgusting fat face!
Exercise? What exercise? I play video games yo, I don't exercise. There is no cardio in World of Warcraft. Sure, maybe I play 10 games of hockey a night, but my Xbox doesn't raise my heart rate!
These are the problems which lead me to my obesity. Call it what it is, I'm a big boy, figuratively and literally. I am a disgusting fat body! I think I finally hate myself enough to do something about it. So, what the hell am I going to do.
I'm going to start with the core. Back and abs. Build up the trunk, then work on the limbs. Also, going to start easing into cardio. Running is my goal, but lets be honest. I'm really in rough shape here, and I have a job. I need to ease into that... I'm going to start the 'Couch Potato to 5k athlete program' http://www.coolrunning.com/engine/2/2_3/181.shtml
I'm open to all ideas. I'm starting food journal and will be keeping track of everything I put in my gullet. Here goes everything!
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